Church Trauma Song

by CalicoLoco

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thehumanrhapsody this is *the* song to scream along to in your car, on the good days and the bad ones. i deserve to be exactly who i was always meant to be.

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lyrics

sunday morning i stayed
in bed pretend to sleep
prayed they’ll go to church without me

seven years old
i’m trying to kill the speaker with my mind
feel so guilty
so guilty i could die

wish that i could have got over this by now
but i cant
don’t think i payed attention much
cause I’m not sure I ever learned how to forgive

can’t sleep at night
thinking about you watching over me
i just might
pass the time and hide under the sheets
it’s not alright
to think there’s something wrong with you
but you are just a child

i know im not the person that you’d
always thought i’d be
but maybe i could be something close enough

call me by a different name or don’t call me at all
i won’t say i’m sorry
Cause I’ll be happy to be person that i was always meant to be

A thousand dresses in my closet I just can’t wear outside
Why won’t you leave me alone
I can’t watch a horror film without closing my eyes
Why won’t you leave me alone

I’ve lost
Much more faith
Than I ever thought I had
But I don’t feel any better

I feel dumb
I feel numb
I feel stupid
But I’ll find a way
To get there some day
And I won’t say I’m sorry
no no no
And that’s okay
Because I deserve to be
Exactly who I was always
meant to be

Maybe I’m nothing but trouble
But I really don’t care cause I’m having fun
Learn something new every day right now I’m gonna
Teach me how to love myself
It’s okay to be a little afraid because I’m
Working on it every single day
But when I look in the mirror I know that
some things take a little long

im gonna get there
and i’m gonna be
exactly who i know is me
im gonna do it
im gonna do it
im gonna be so happy

Im not too late
My bones are what they are but I can change
I’m not afraid of myself
I’m not gonna let this stop me anymore
i love myself

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released October 7, 2022
performed by calico loco
- dani - vocals, guitar, synth
- curran - vocals guitar
- Sara - bass
- ricky - drums
- zeke - guitar

mixed and mastered by curran

art by Camile Willaford @coo.doos

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